Overwhelmed!

Overwhelmed is a easy way to put how I've felt lately.  I have so much on my plate that I feel like I can't enjoy the little moments I have with Kyle and Hannah! Talk about frustrating! Every weekend has been full and no down time for us.  Kyle has been so wonderful he's helped me as much as he can and more!  I get a little more stressed out when I have a lot of assignments due for class or I have a test coming up and he's been so patient and helps out with laundry, dishes, dinner and keeping Hannah occupied.  I'm so blessed to have him in my life, he's such a big help and a huge supporter.

What more could I ask for?  I've also been more emotional the past couple of weeks, it seems like since I've entered into my third trimester, my emotions are so up and down.  Not to mention that I've been battling a cold for a little over a week now.Yuck!

Hannah is just wonderful too.  She does what I call "gives me lovin" its really the sweetest thing.  I was putting on a cabinet lock and my finger slipped off of it and it felt like I bent my finger nail backwards... (OUCH!) Because Miss Hannah repeats everything (almost) that we say I had to keep a few words to myself but I was definitely hopping around like a crazy person and was trying to ignore the pain (didnt work to well) anyway Hannah is yanking on my shirt saying Mommy... Mommy... I looked down at her and she grabs my hand and kisses my finger to make it feel better! I literally melted like butter! That was the sweetest gesture that I think I could have ever expected...

I try to store up these little memories that I have with my two favorite people in the entire world so when I do get overwhelmed it's a nice way to calm myself down and remember that there is light at the end of the tunnel.  Don't get me wrong its extremely difficult sometimes but anything that's worth fighting for isn't going to be handed to me!  I don't expect the next couple of years left in school is going to be a walk in the park but I know who I have on my side and by my side and it makes looking into the future a lot more easier and fun!

But honestly I am REALLY looking forward to this semester being over so I can relax and prepare myself and my family for the new little girl who will be joining us soon after classes end! I am very much so looking forward to that date... December 14th to be exact!

Probably Silly

This is probably silly but I am so tired of hearing it! Co-workers... yes I am pregnant, yes I am "sticking" out there and yes I realize my boobs are big just like my stomach, and yes I am sure to you who only sees me once a week thinks that I do grow over night! So why do you constantly feel the need to tell me every day that my stomach is bigger than it was yesterday, or that my boobs are catching up with my stomach???  I don't need the reminder I walk around 24/7 with the bump and the boobs, so I promise you I havent forgotten about either!

But honestly blog friends why is it that people feel the need to constantly tell me that my stomach baby bump is "sticking waaaay out there today, more than yesterday"? 

Maybe I should give them ALL the benefit of the doubt that they just dont realize how pregnant I really am?  Like 7 months pregnant, meaning 28 weeks, further meaning I have only 12 weeks left...  I worked wtih the public, with strangers and people I knew pretty well when I was pregnant with Hannah and it wasnt until maybe the last couple weeks of work that they were asking me questions like if I thought I would make it to February... But not this crowd... Nope they as I said above feel the constant need to tell me (now) how my belly is sticking out or heres a new one I heard just this morning "Man, you really are growing over night!" nice... really nice...

Is it bad that my sensitivity level of caring how what I say makes them feel has become almost non-existant?

Please don't think I am a girl who needs to hear she looks great and blah, blah, blah... To be honest I'd rather not hear a thing! But I do miss my old job where my friends wouldnt tell me how big they thought I was getting!

I am in my 3rd and final trimester and I will be 29 weeks on Sunday, so maybe its my hormones flying around all crazy and out of wack again but it has become an increasing annoyance hearing constant remarks.

My remarks to them are getting less sweet and more snippy.  Can you blame me?  My short reply is "Well isnt that how it is supposed to be this far along?" Of course they are like well yeah, and we head in our separate ways.  But I have a feeling that if I continue to hear these little remarks I will say something that will hurt one of their feelings.  But I dont know what else to do!?

Again if you think this is a silly blog post I am sorry but I had to HAD TO get this off my chest and maybe now I can let it go! But then again who knows?

Hmmmm...

I was updating my calendar this morning and as I was going through the remaining months left in this year I added all the necessary dates needed (test, dates for assignments, dr. appts, weekend events and everything really) Well I got to December of course not only is that a big month because I am due on the 25th, but it is Christmas! It is also going to be a very stressful month I've realized too... I have 2 finals that month one is 2 weeks before my due date the other is 11 days before and that is the final I have to drive to GW to take, we have 3 Christmas family gatherings before the 24th, and I have to get Hannah ready for Christmas/Santa Claus, along with wrapping gifts and putting out Christmas decorations! Of course I plan to do only a handful of these things before December like putting out decorations and wrapping gifts but the rest obviously has to be taken care of in December. 

To say I am stressing doesn't quite explain the amount of stress I have on getting it all completed... and completed in the right way.  My religion final is on the 14th of December and I'm not sure I will be thinking about the Old Testament to much 11 days before I'm due so I'm trying to figure out how in the world I will feel up to studying for it.  I guess time will tell but right now all I can do is pray she doesn't decide to come 2 weeks early at this point.  Say a few small prayers for me that I keep my sanity and I can get all of my "wish list" tasks done in the meantime! Thanks :)